Exciting News!!

To those of you that don't know it...
I am on a personal mission to look the best I can for my wedding (that is my long term goal) and my short term goal is to just look healthier and feel healthier the next time I see ya'll. So today at the gym I got on the dreaded scale...I hate that freakin thing...and it said that I have lost 10 pounds! I am stoked!! I can't really see the weight loss...so I am thinking that it is pretty much from everywhere, but puts my 2 miles and 500 crunches in perspective...which has pretty much motivated me to go or try to go every day! I just know I can do it!
I am not trying to rub anything in anyone's face.....it's just the little things that get me excited...I want to be a size healthier, a size more energetic, a smaller size version of me.

So...

So I know that my life is boring. BAHORING! I am not expecting a baby, nor do I have one to take cute and witty pics of. But..here is a pic of my children. And this is them at their best.

My job.

My job ceases to amaze me. Really. Who knew that you could love your job so much after resenting it for so long. Anyway....this is where my job gets really cool...
Yesterday I took care of a patient with an at the knee amputation. Ok so normally it is either below the knee or above the knee, hardly ever at the knee. Anyway...his dressing was getting saturated and I wanted to change the dressing. So I did. Well I don't know what I was really expecting because I never really saw an at the knee amputation before, but at the same time I wasn't expecting what I saw. Anyway, as I was taking down the dressing, there staring at me was....A HUMAN FEMUR! I freakin saw a human femur that wasn't on a skeleton!! I almost had a heartattack. I mean I wasn't grossed out, just not expecting to see a femur. Usually amputation sites are sewn shut....not this one. But I can now say that I saw a human femur and now I can move on. Ohh...and I want to thank those Ortho docs that I worked with in Texas. Who knew that if you actually listen to them their ideas work ;) I didn't have to change my dressing all day!

Today

Well since I last wrote, I have done some more thinking. Even after the gym I came home and felt clastrophobic. I am now beginning to understand what it is like to be stuck in a hospital room with nothing else to do but watch paint dry. Anyway...I decided that before I completely lost my mind I would take Scout Thomas and Gizmo Marie on a walk. The following pictures are proof that my dogs walk me.

This past weekend...

So...this weekend was my weekend to work, which I did, but nothing else too exciting did happen. (However, I am no longer sickened by sputum, especially thick sputum that trached patients manage to cough across the room) I am however really putting some thought into moving back east. I AM happy here, but not as happy as I know I can be if I was closer to family. So there...now you know that I failed at living away from home...failed at living on my own. Anyway...nothing is set in stone, all I know is I want to be able to drive home in half a day...and drive to see Jaime in half a day. In other words...somewhere anywhere other than here. Our current lease is up in March....so maybe one more winter here before I shock my body back into east coast winters....then there is the whole find a job thing...and the moving thing....I did apply for a teaching job at St Luke's Hospital School of Nursing, so I will find out if I am even a candidate to do clinical instructing there. Until then...I have no idea what is going on in my life...I just know that while Joe makes me unbelievably happy, I can't rely on him to make me completely happy. So...I am sorry to say that I failed out here....I tried it...I did..I really did...and now...this show must end and I believe I need to move back home. "So I'm coming home, back to the place where I belong And where your love has always been enough for me. I'm not running, no I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me But these places and these faces are getting old." (Thanks Daughtry- I don't think I could have said it better myself)

Thinking...

Ok...
So I am sitting here thinking about a lot of things...and yes I do mean A LOT of things...
Again the wedding color has changed...so now we are in the blue family. Green wasn't going to give the wedding the look I wanted. And the official color won't be picked out until I find my dress....
To my niece Shae...I am soo sorry that you don't even know me. I am soo sorry that I am a horrible aunt. I promise one day we will meet and it will be love at first sight. I can't wait to see you and hold you and hug you. I can't wait to hear you start talking and asking for me...but I know that won't happen until we meet...I promise...I am doing my best to get there soon...just have some faith that I sit here and love on you without you even knowing me..
As much as I love it out here, I am starting to wonder how much of a toll this will take on me. I don't like it that I don't get to see my family nearly enough...that I have yet to meet my niece, and that I just can't go wedding dress shopping with my mom and aunts. I guess all in all I need to sit down and find out what is a perfect fit for me...for crying out loud I need my family but I need my space too!

Update..

Ok...so the date has been changed...it will now be August 8, 2009...it will be a Saturday...and Joe has chosen Clover Green as the wedding color. So the location has stayed the same...just the date and now the color has been picked. I will keep you all updated and informed. I am going to look at dresses this week, just to get an idea of what I like. Stay tuned....