Monday, June 9, 2008

This past weekend...

So...this weekend was my weekend to work, which I did, but nothing else too exciting did happen. (However, I am no longer sickened by sputum, especially thick sputum that trached patients manage to cough across the room) I am however really putting some thought into moving back east. I AM happy here, but not as happy as I know I can be if I was closer to family. So you know that I failed at living away from home...failed at living on my own. Anyway...nothing is set in stone, all I know is I want to be able to drive home in half a day...and drive to see Jaime in half a day. In other words...somewhere anywhere other than here. Our current lease is up in maybe one more winter here before I shock my body back into east coast winters....then there is the whole find a job thing...and the moving thing....I did apply for a teaching job at St Luke's Hospital School of Nursing, so I will find out if I am even a candidate to do clinical instructing there. Until then...I have no idea what is going on in my life...I just know that while Joe makes me unbelievably happy, I can't rely on him to make me completely happy. So...I am sorry to say that I failed out here....I tried it...I did..I really did...and now...this show must end and I believe I need to move back home. "So I'm coming home, back to the place where I belong And where your love has always been enough for me. I'm not running, no I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me But these places and these faces are getting old." (Thanks Daughtry- I don't think I could have said it better myself)


rockle said...

living your life and finding that one of the choices you made was not necessarily correct is NOT failure! look at the experience you got from living away from home for so long -- and even a negative experience can be educational in some way, and experience is experience (much like publicity, lol).

remember what vince lombardi said: "the greatest accomplishment is not in never failing, but in rising again after you fall." think of how much better YOU are after having dared to live your life on your own terms.

that song is right, you know. you are NOT turning tail and running away from a "mistake." you are packing up and preparing to make new ones, which is what life is all about.

jaime said...

i agree with rachel. for once ;-) you haven't failed. i mean, you did it for how long? nobody else even tried to live on the west coast. and why is it failing because you miss home? that, to me, just means mom and dad did a great job a raised a wonderful woman who loves her family and knows how important family is. sounds pretty successful to me.