thought

I am deep in thought as I am writing this post. I am confused, and hurt, and genuinely feel like we have been taken advantage of, or used, depending on how you look at it. See, last year before we found out we were pregnant, we told the hub's nephew that when he came back from Iraq we want him to be her Godfather. He was excited. (maybe I was more excited than him). Anyway, the day came and went that she was born. We didn't hear anything from him, which of course is excusable because he was in Iraq. Well, he came home on leave and wanted to see us. Or, so I thought. Actually, I think he just wanted see us so we would do him a favor. As we as in the hubs. Well, he went back, and only had like 3 weeks left. While home, we told him to get a letter from the Army chaplain saying that he was in good standing with Church and what not so that he can be our daughter's Godfather. Yes, I know he had to go back to war, but the way he described it he really wasn't doing much anyway. But I digress. He called upon the hubs a week later to do another favor, and he even used our address to ship ammo to our apartment without so much as asking or telling us. It just showed up at our house. He has been back now for almost a month. He hasn't so much as called us or texted us. He hasn't shown any concern for the ammo that is at our home. He doesn't return texts. I don't deserve this behavior. My hubs doesn't deserve it either. Nor does my daughter. What kind of Godfather is he being? What kind of person is he being? Why won't he just say, I don't want it. That would be fine.
But, we need to move on. I need to find someone that wants to be her Godfather. We are giving him until the end of the week, and then we are moving on. We are taking it as him not wanting to be her Godfather and finding someone who loves her who wants that honor. It is what she deserves, what I deserve, what we deserve. Who would think that a grown person can act this way? But, to each their own I guess.