Realization

So, today I have realized a lot of things. Life is not easy, and not easier since getting married. No, I did not except marriage to make things easier, well maybe just a little bit. No, I am not regretting getting married, I love the hubs and am very happy with the decision I made. I had a very heartfelt conversation with one of my sisters and learned a lot more about what it takes to make a house a home. I also learned that I need to be more frugal, which would be easy if it was me, but with the hubs, apparently he is high maintenance. With that being said, I have also learned that through marriage I have grow up more and more everyday. I have learned that there are hard decisions in life and once you make them you have to know that you made the decisions with lots of thinking and praying. For example, Monday I start a per diem job at another hospital. Yes, I still work at hospital A, but I made the decision that picking up another job is what is best for my family. Yes, I know that I will be stressed, and yes, that means less quality time with the hubs, but right now, it is what I see is best for us. As you know, I am teaching PREP classes at the Church I go too, so that is what is a perfect start to becoming stronger spiritually. I am also going to try to do a Bible Study through a Church I used to attend, and in doing said Bible Study, I will read the Bible in a year. I realized that I love what I do, but not necessarily in the context that I am currently nursing. As you may or may not know, I applied to grad school to get my NP. I won't hear anything until July, but every day I realize that it is what is best for me.

Well, that is enough for now. I missed by cousin Beth's wedding because I had to work, and I don't know if I will be able to get over it. I know that I will eventually, but I still feel bad.

What Faith Can Do

I can't believe Christmas is over. Whew, what a whirlwind of activity and family and all the stuff that goes in between. With 2009 winding down, and 2010 literally like a day a way, it is that time of the year to make our New Year's Resolutions. I don't know about you, but I am not the best at keeping them. I can make resolutions like a champ, but I can't necessarily keep them. That is until this year! What is it about this year that makes it different from all the other years, really, I have no idea. Maybe it is because I was at Church early on Christmas morning and had 45 minutes to clear my head and listen to God, and actually hear what he had to say. That was the most peace I have had in my life in a long long time. My resolution this year isn't to go to the gym every day, because with working 5 days a week, I do need to rest. My resolution for this year is to be healthier Mentally, Physically, Emotionally and Spiritually. See, in my time by myself Christmas morning, I made God aware of my New Year's resolution, and it seems the good Lord really was talking to me and he really does answer prayers. Monday I had a voicemail on the house phone from a Lady at NDB Church asking if I was still interested in teaching

classes at said Church. It would only be 45 minutes a week, and it will be first graders. I remember how much fun I had doing it in AZ, but I told her I needed to talk it over with hubby and pray about it. Well, Tuesday I was able to accept the position as First Grade PREP teacher, and I start next Wednesday! I am excited and nervous all at once.

So, I ask that you keep me in your thoughts and prayers and that you

2010 is going to be a great year!