What a difference a day makes...

Yesterday was my first day of clinicals. Well kinda. No wait scratch that. On Friday we had midterms for my new job. Yes, midterms, like I am back in school again. Anyway, now for the next 3 weeks (2 for me because of an upcoming family vacay) we don't have class, we are just in the OR. Let me just tell you how nervous I was yesterday and how absolutely terrible the day was! I pretty much got yelled at for everything I did, I feel like I would have gotten yelled at for breathing if I breathed too loudly. I even went home and cried. First time EVER!!!
Today, however, COMPLETELY different.I was in the gyne room, and I was nervous that I wouldn't like it. However...so not what I thought! The nurses were laid back. The actually let me learn,let me ask questions. I got to open sterile instruments, open up the back table, add things to the sterile field. I got to prep op sites, do pre-op interviews AND I got to do some charting. I wanted to scrub in today, but that didn't happen. I am not disappointed, I did do a lot today. I know this isn't much to you guys...but to me...this is HUGE!! I assisted in surgical counting, and learned lots of new things. I am in the Open heart OR tomorrow with my favorite surgeon, maybe he will let me scrub...if not, I will see what I can do to gain more experience and continue to grow!